But I got a strong heart to write this out, so that what I felt tonight is documented, for future read.
By the way, it's Dad's birthday today. Happy birthday to you. I always love you oodles and oodles. First half of the day went well though, until the sun set. (dude, I'm so sleepy -__- )
Let's get straight to the point. I used to be so grumpy and all and couldn't really manage my emotions. In simpler words, I tended to get mad over anything that could piss me off, even if it's as small as touching my garments. I know.. I was this bad :( But as the time passes by, I notice I have developed higher maturity level, which results in me being extra careful when saying something, extra thoughtful when deciding something, extra protective about my loved ones, and umm... extra profligate in my saving? (sorry not sorry!).
So it's one of the times again. I am not honoured at all to include this person in my life, let alone in my blog entry! But I have to do this anyway. This blog was created so that I can write whatever I feel inside, be it sad or happy, proud or disappointed. So this person did it again. I have been holding back myself from killing this person I tell ya. So much hatred in one sentence, huh? Alhamdulillah, every time I feel like ripping this person's leather shoes, I have this inner voice telling me to calm down and think what I'd do will affect my path to the afterlife, so I always end up taking a very deep breath and release all the grudge/anger/hatred as I exhale. (Try again next time, Satan!) I keep myself reminded that every deed I do has its rewards or punishment, so I better be wise enough to avoid the latter, by being nice 24/7.
Sabr is virtue, sabr is a part of Imaan.
May you be blessed with endurance and patience while sailing your boat in a sea full of nothing.
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